Making It Count

Often I found myself really confused about what my calling on Earth is and if what I have done in my life is exactly what i should be doing. Honestly, it is super tough. It is tough to try and be who we want to be when social media, friends and family influence us.

I try to not let social media be the most influence in my life because of the "perfect" persona that it is. I was talking to a friend of mine that has helped me in multiple ways I don't even know... She said that her sister in law is always picture perfect and had been so jealous of how put and placed her and her kids are. However when she talked to her, her sister in law said that, its only in that moment, 99% of the time, shes a complete mess, tired and kids crying/fighting all the time.

After this conversation, I had been thinking, what the heck am I stressing out so much for? Since then, I have been trying really hard to not feel envious of the life that my friends are having and try to live in the moment that I do have.

I have this really bad habit of thinking about the past and really regretting what I did, said or the path not taken. I always do this and make myself feel like crap. You know that gut feeling that you get when you've done something terrible? I get that from thinking about all the crappy things I've done, haven't done and said. I spend a lot of my time doing that and it was a complete waste of time. It was unproductive in allowing me to more forward and really enjoy what I have in front of me. It didn't allow me to appreciate who and what I've got.

With this realization, I've spent a lot of my days enjoying what the world had to offer me. Whether is was the weather or the ability to hang out with an old friend or taking the treasured nap times with my son. You know that saying every mother receives? "Sleep when the baby is a sleep". Yup, I am now doing it. I totally miss the points of when my son was a newborn, tiny and doesn't shuffle in his sleep. Because I never cuddled with him when he slept. I was up and about, cleaning, cooking, showering, answering and making phone calls. I missed that snuggle time with my wee one. Now, I do it every afternoon. As soon as that clock strikes 12, we are in bed, cuddled up with a good old blanket and "Where is spot?" book. Instantly, we are a sleep. Its one of the moments I look forward to the most, next to when the clock strikes 5 and my husband comes home from work.

So, I have found myself thinking about the past less and less. Giving my present a better chance at showing itself to me and its pretty freaken awesome.

This life is indeed a short one. I hate to see every day be wasted... but that weeks are long (hehe) ... so,

What have you done lately that was in the moment?

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